Let's wrap this b**ch up

What a difference a day makes.

Yesterday I felt *awful* all day. I knew part of it was the pre-rain crappiness I usually feel before a storm but my abdomen was killing me. I fel like I was back at week 1. I would have been concerned but my drain was fine. I have no idea if that actually means anything but it's been my own little reassurance. Not to be TMI but last night I had a giant belch and the pain was gone. So, apparently, when I get gas trapped in my stomach it's so freaking tight that it has nowhere to go. Unexpected side effect of surgery #2451 that has been a surprise.

This healing thing has been fascinating and frustrating. Im really ready for it to be done though. My drain should come out Thursday and while I'm THRILLED about that every time I see how beautiful my incision is closing and how there is the tiniest of lines where it's already closed I think, "Shit. My body has also been healing around this drain for nearly 3 weeks. Ouch." When she took the first one out it had been less than a week so it didn't hurt at all. Just a sting. When I went for my second follow-up appointment I heard a guy screaming down the hallway. I bet I know why. I'm going to take 2 pain pills and wad up a bandana to shove in my mouth when she pulls it. I'm so dreading this even though I know I can finally finish healing when it's out.

I'm also ready to be done talking about all of this. I just want to get back to my life, my "normal" like I talked about and get on with it. I want to talk about running and WODs instead of drains and gas pains from super tight skin. This bores me and I'm the one living it, I can't imagine how tedious these blog entries are to read. Now that this process is hopefully coming to an end I realize how bizarre it all was. I also realize that there are still parts of me I'd love to have fixed but it's not as easy as it sounds. I'm not willing to have the downtime and mental BS of all of it. I had legitimate reasons to do what I did. The rest though? It stays where it lays. HAHA!