4 Weeks of Positive Thinking

Since the last 4 weeks have been nothing but whining: whining about how much pain I was in, whining about how sucky living without power and water for a week was after the hurricane (while being in pain), and whining about how I look, I decided that -- for my own sanity -- that any blog post in the next 4 weeks will have at least something positive in it. If this is my last entry for a month then it wasn't a very successful experiment but I believe, like training the body, I can train my mind to get past all this bullshit. Because, really, the 3 outcomes of my unhappiness are this:

1. It resolves itself on its own
2. I learn to live with it
3. I decide to have it fixed

Put like that it seems pretty simple. It will fall into one of the 3 categories and I'll know which one it is when I know. End of story.

Today's positive thing: I did the treadmill today for 50 minutes, 3.64 miles. I've added 5 minutes and almost half a mile from my first outing on Monday. It's small progress but it's progress. I haven't thrown in the towel. It's not comfortable, I'm still very tender and tight through my whole abdomen but I'm trying to work it out.

I'm also trying to look at myself through the "clothing lens" to see if things are as bad as I think they are. I'm not going to post a picture of myself for the next 4 weeks. Any readers I have left will be thinking, "Please. I liked you better when you hated yourself and I didn't have to look at you every day." But today is Day 1 of this effort and I wore workout clothes. My positive thing I will say is that running shorts look totally flat the way they're supposed to now.



Tomorrow is another day.