Coming to my senses

Today was a better day. I didn't fall asleep until 3:30ish so I slept later but when I got up my drains were good and I was stiff from not moving but not in horrible pain. I took some pain meds when I got up but I lasted until 5pm before taking another one. I didn't take Valium for the muscle soreness but I'll take one before bed. The antibiotic horse pills are killing me though. They get stuck every time and my stomach (the inside one) hurts. I'll be happy when that bottle is done.

My parents came over today. It was a good visit but I was exhausted after even from just 2 hours. I took a nap after but let's be honest, I'd take a 2-hour nap on a Sunday anyway. I did a reveal of my stomach (the outside one) for my mom and she said it looked good and I needed a belly ring. Haha. She was more pleased that there was no redness at all from infection. It was a quick glance though, it is pretty hideous to look at so we changed the dressings and sealed me back up in the binder.

I had a great chat with my dear friend tonight. That boosted me spirits a lot and I'm going to meet her on Friday while -- get this -- she and my husband do a run and then we all go out for breakfast. That's awesome! I think the best way for me to stay in the game with fitness is to keep it a part of my life even while I'm recovering. Just because I can't run I am thrilled my husband and friend will do it anyway. My xfit is hosting a benefit WOD on the 3rd called 31 Heroes and even though I won't be able to do it I signed up to support the cause and I'll go and be the photographer. The door is and will remain open to me there. I'm the only one who can shut it by feeling sorry for myself, convincing myself I've lost too much time and can't recover for my fall events, and turning my back on the support system I've been lucky enough to develop. When I go back I'll be slow, I won't be lifting heavy, and I'll have to modify some moves again but it's not going to matter. My place in the community was never contingent on whether I could RX a WOD or not. Talking with Chris made me realize that.

Tomorrow is my first follow up. I know it's too soon to see how I'm going to turn out but I'd really like not to hear "Wow. I really botched that one up, huh?" when she looks at me. After that I have to mail out my first completed auction! It ended 7 days early with buy-it-now. I wish I had better crap to sell!!